"You are writing that story thing again.. Hey what do you write these days? I mean I don't see you write anything in your blog. Heck I haven't seen you write anything of substance for lot of days. and your last blog piece was nothing really, just emotional wreck! But i see you write all this stories on your laptop plus some other articles, poems and stuffs, not that I've read any of them, but nothing in your blog. What are those writings all about? Surely you can post some of those to your blog as well?" was what Rahul said to me about a week ago.
A long "hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" was all that I could reply to him.
True its been sometime since I wrote something good in my blog. And my last post really doesn't qualify for a decent writing either. Life was quite action packed since my last entry of October the 20th, comprising of a crazy fast forward vacation, horrible internals and ending with mentally draining, blood sucking, external!
Our trip to the southern and south-western tip of India was quite action packed. It was not one of those stereotyped holidays where you rest- lying on the beach, with your naked feet, sipping lemon juice, under the shades of an umbrella and enjoying the blue sea. It was quite the contrary in fact. It was the sort of a holiday where you run around more rather than rest in one place. The problem of visiting too many places in too little less time! But we enjoyed, and that's what matters. It was the most I've enjoyed in a holiday for a long time! I only wished that we could have stayed in Kannyakumari for a bit longer time. I've never been to a coastal city of India that has so much peace, with so less pollution and chaos! Trivandrum on the other hand was like a typical city, which, although I have to say, seemed better one than Kochi. But then I was there only for about 48 hours or so! Anyways it was just 72 hours of pure fun, chaos and drama! Not exactly living on the edge though but not living too far from it either. Inspired by that chaotic and fast forward motioned holiday i had even started writing a first person fictionalized yet a non-fictional account of that tour (though sadly when I'll get to complete it, I don't know).
Coming back from such a tour and then adjusting our mindset to the upcoming internal exams in a span of 3 days was not easy, but it is least expected from a 22 year old senior year M.Sc student. And that's where I disappointed myself and had my worst internals yet, so much so that I slipped to 9th in the class after the numbers came out! No I'm not disappointed because of the rank or the marks, they are just reflection of my efforts! To me marks and ranks don't matter much, unlike knowledge. But yes, there are people who are ready to do almost anything to get good marks and high grades, competition for the sake of competition, is what they claim. Poor fellows. No I'm not like that. fortunately or unfortunately I never was. But what's disappointing was that I did not study! I didn't put up any effort at all. My mind was busy wandering somewhere else, in its own world. While others where busy mugging up their portions I was busy creating an universe inside my own mind. You can't study when half of your mind is busy searching for the other half to assist me in studying, only to realise its lost!!! Imagine that!!
Luckily I sort of recovered a little, between the gap between Internal's the External's saving myself from a catastrophic consequences, academic wise at least.
Between the inters and the externals came my birthday! I had the quietest birthday this time around. That is if you go by the trend of past 4 years record! It was silent, gloomy, with slight tensed atmosphere of the exam lurking in the corner (more like death lurking in the corner), it was a type of a birthday i deserved. At least I had my friends. Their presence inside the room was good enough for me. The sad part was we had our first exam right after the day of Diwali! That too in Kerala! I hope it is understandable how our Diwali was like! :(
I got through my externals somehow. Chained my escaping mind to my brain and studied! There were some prison breaks though! :D but the culprit was brought back to its place as fast as possible!!! It wasn't the best external a student could have had nor was it good, but it was better than worse at least!
In midst of all this came the big realisation... Its the end of the IIIrd Semester. Just one more semester to go!!
It was a very strange 3rd semester. Things flew by pretty thick and fast. starting with the arrival of our juniors and welcoming back amongst ourselves Koushik (in a way he never left :) ). Blood donation and the consequences I had to face. Leaving of my/our seniors, which was something Rahul and I never got over with, I still haven't. Then the field trips. Making a joker out of ourselves (me and Rahul) by wearing Moond and a Dhoti in the Onam celebrations. Then going back to home in late August. Coming back and facing a barrage of practical exams (which we should have faced long before, both teachers and students to be blamed for that), then off course struggling with feelings, struggling with friendship, fights, study, stress, insomnia(for the 2nd time!), classes, assignments, and again field trips. And then finally winding up with the Kannyakumari tour and exams. Its quite incredible when you think all this happened in a span of only 4 months!
So, in hindsight, only 25% of my M.Sc life is left as of now. 8 more months! With all probability this may well be my last 8 months in Kerala as well. Don't know where I'd be heading to after this. Or whether I'd be staying here or not. Don't know for sure what I'd be doing after 8 months. Don't know where would Rahul, Suraj, Arnab or Soumya or my new friends (the one's that i made here) would be doing. Funny thing is, neither do they know! And that's how uncertain life is! And with all that we still have to study, and have 4th sem projects and dissertation works and exams, I don't think we would get much time to think either! So the best thing we can do is stay in the present. Stay optimistic. Work hard. Set our priorities. Not planning too ahead but definitely keeping a goal in my mind, and hope everything will turnout for the best!
Something I wrote a few days back- (one of those that Rahul was taking about)
A long "hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm" was all that I could reply to him.
True its been sometime since I wrote something good in my blog. And my last post really doesn't qualify for a decent writing either. Life was quite action packed since my last entry of October the 20th, comprising of a crazy fast forward vacation, horrible internals and ending with mentally draining, blood sucking, external!
Our trip to the southern and south-western tip of India was quite action packed. It was not one of those stereotyped holidays where you rest- lying on the beach, with your naked feet, sipping lemon juice, under the shades of an umbrella and enjoying the blue sea. It was quite the contrary in fact. It was the sort of a holiday where you run around more rather than rest in one place. The problem of visiting too many places in too little less time! But we enjoyed, and that's what matters. It was the most I've enjoyed in a holiday for a long time! I only wished that we could have stayed in Kannyakumari for a bit longer time. I've never been to a coastal city of India that has so much peace, with so less pollution and chaos! Trivandrum on the other hand was like a typical city, which, although I have to say, seemed better one than Kochi. But then I was there only for about 48 hours or so! Anyways it was just 72 hours of pure fun, chaos and drama! Not exactly living on the edge though but not living too far from it either. Inspired by that chaotic and fast forward motioned holiday i had even started writing a first person fictionalized yet a non-fictional account of that tour (though sadly when I'll get to complete it, I don't know).
Coming back from such a tour and then adjusting our mindset to the upcoming internal exams in a span of 3 days was not easy, but it is least expected from a 22 year old senior year M.Sc student. And that's where I disappointed myself and had my worst internals yet, so much so that I slipped to 9th in the class after the numbers came out! No I'm not disappointed because of the rank or the marks, they are just reflection of my efforts! To me marks and ranks don't matter much, unlike knowledge. But yes, there are people who are ready to do almost anything to get good marks and high grades, competition for the sake of competition, is what they claim. Poor fellows. No I'm not like that. fortunately or unfortunately I never was. But what's disappointing was that I did not study! I didn't put up any effort at all. My mind was busy wandering somewhere else, in its own world. While others where busy mugging up their portions I was busy creating an universe inside my own mind. You can't study when half of your mind is busy searching for the other half to assist me in studying, only to realise its lost!!! Imagine that!!
Luckily I sort of recovered a little, between the gap between Internal's the External's saving myself from a catastrophic consequences, academic wise at least.
Between the inters and the externals came my birthday! I had the quietest birthday this time around. That is if you go by the trend of past 4 years record! It was silent, gloomy, with slight tensed atmosphere of the exam lurking in the corner (more like death lurking in the corner), it was a type of a birthday i deserved. At least I had my friends. Their presence inside the room was good enough for me. The sad part was we had our first exam right after the day of Diwali! That too in Kerala! I hope it is understandable how our Diwali was like! :(
I got through my externals somehow. Chained my escaping mind to my brain and studied! There were some prison breaks though! :D but the culprit was brought back to its place as fast as possible!!! It wasn't the best external a student could have had nor was it good, but it was better than worse at least!
In midst of all this came the big realisation... Its the end of the IIIrd Semester. Just one more semester to go!!
It was a very strange 3rd semester. Things flew by pretty thick and fast. starting with the arrival of our juniors and welcoming back amongst ourselves Koushik (in a way he never left :) ). Blood donation and the consequences I had to face. Leaving of my/our seniors, which was something Rahul and I never got over with, I still haven't. Then the field trips. Making a joker out of ourselves (me and Rahul) by wearing Moond and a Dhoti in the Onam celebrations. Then going back to home in late August. Coming back and facing a barrage of practical exams (which we should have faced long before, both teachers and students to be blamed for that), then off course struggling with feelings, struggling with friendship, fights, study, stress, insomnia(for the 2nd time!), classes, assignments, and again field trips. And then finally winding up with the Kannyakumari tour and exams. Its quite incredible when you think all this happened in a span of only 4 months!
So, in hindsight, only 25% of my M.Sc life is left as of now. 8 more months! With all probability this may well be my last 8 months in Kerala as well. Don't know where I'd be heading to after this. Or whether I'd be staying here or not. Don't know for sure what I'd be doing after 8 months. Don't know where would Rahul, Suraj, Arnab or Soumya or my new friends (the one's that i made here) would be doing. Funny thing is, neither do they know! And that's how uncertain life is! And with all that we still have to study, and have 4th sem projects and dissertation works and exams, I don't think we would get much time to think either! So the best thing we can do is stay in the present. Stay optimistic. Work hard. Set our priorities. Not planning too ahead but definitely keeping a goal in my mind, and hope everything will turnout for the best!
Something I wrote a few days back- (one of those that Rahul was taking about)
"Just for a moment, You get the feeling.
Somethings are stolen and Someone is dreaming..."
(I'd rather keep contents of the rest of the poems to myself :D ;))
Here is a picture from Kannyakumari..... (I'll try telling more about that tour later!)
P.S.- I apologize for my last post. Didn't make myself too popular with some people, while some found it very amusing and funny.. but then people, it is, at the end of the day, it's my blog! :P
